break's over :T

louder, louder, and we'll run for our lives

i hate school, i hate life :(

i have done nothing productive over the break. how ironic. the break was meant for relaxing and stuff, all i did was work non stop. honestly, customers should go away and leave me alone. i'm such a poor little innocent child and i'm being tortured.


new years resolutions:


- concentrate in school more
- another dog
- drop some el bees
- quit being so emotionally lame

man, my life has been so freaking unstable. this year, i've been extremely disconnected to everyone around me especially in school. i haven't been to even one party. how sad eh?

i'm completely lost in terms of the direction that my life is going :( . i spend all of my time being so negative. but quite honestly, i kinda wanna drift away from highschool life. it's just that i think theres so much better people to spend time with. i'm sick of spending time with people who i don't even fit in with. but then again, i've never been normal either.

see I try to hide the fact
that I am just a fragile individual
so I give off this facade that I'm so hard
when in fact I'm far from unbreakable
I'm so afraid to talk and express myself
keepin' all my feelings bottled inside
of this empty shell that I call my heart

i hate how half the time i'm around people, i have to force myself to act like what i'm not just so i don't have to worry so much about fitting in. but almost whatever people see of me at school is complete and utter

bullshit

just like the rest of my life.

one more fucking year & i'm out of that crapshack.

the thing that bothers me the most is that whenever i try to express whatever the hell i'm feeling, someone comes along and makes fun of it.

honestly, i don't get what's so funny about liking different things.



ugh, i have such great friends, don't i -__-