holy freaking crap.

i need to figure myself out.

i'm like, on the brink of going into depression. seriously.

it's the first time i ever got drunk by myself at home alone & lied to my friends just so they wouldn't freak out even more.

someone save me.

patience

my heart is numb, has no feeling so while i'm still healing

lalala... im sad.

quite sad quite honestly.

boo.

there will be no white flag..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykjFmlxFg8o&feature=related

my god. this makes me sob like i'm nuts.

i love the uk.

leona + diana + girls aloud + the saturdays + the pipettes + leon jackson + eoghann

my goodness. ARGHH

-sigh-

cause these things will change, can you feel it now? these walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down

this is a revolution, the time will come


school school, go away please. you make me miserable.

10 more months until leona's new album comes out.

what am i gonna do in these 10 months :(

dilly dally shilly shally

man, school :(

today was extremely lame

bio - christina was such a christina D: & nothing fun happened
english - ugh. drew things and played those hand things with momo
mentorship - talked with my kids. it was okay
MATH - HAHAH so much fun :) we were loud though :(

i had like, a revelation today.

i realized that whenever i listen to a leona lewis song in the morning before school, i feel so calm and peaceful :)

through all that shitass snow today, Run was going through my head and even though I slipped I was like :( eff that

-flips hair, smiles and walks on-

i actually had a pretty good day today though :)

break's over :T

louder, louder, and we'll run for our lives

i hate school, i hate life :(

i have done nothing productive over the break. how ironic. the break was meant for relaxing and stuff, all i did was work non stop. honestly, customers should go away and leave me alone. i'm such a poor little innocent child and i'm being tortured.


new years resolutions:


- concentrate in school more
- another dog
- drop some el bees
- quit being so emotionally lame

man, my life has been so freaking unstable. this year, i've been extremely disconnected to everyone around me especially in school. i haven't been to even one party. how sad eh?

i'm completely lost in terms of the direction that my life is going :( . i spend all of my time being so negative. but quite honestly, i kinda wanna drift away from highschool life. it's just that i think theres so much better people to spend time with. i'm sick of spending time with people who i don't even fit in with. but then again, i've never been normal either.

see I try to hide the fact
that I am just a fragile individual
so I give off this facade that I'm so hard
when in fact I'm far from unbreakable
I'm so afraid to talk and express myself
keepin' all my feelings bottled inside
of this empty shell that I call my heart

i hate how half the time i'm around people, i have to force myself to act like what i'm not just so i don't have to worry so much about fitting in. but almost whatever people see of me at school is complete and utter

bullshit

just like the rest of my life.

one more fucking year & i'm out of that crapshack.

the thing that bothers me the most is that whenever i try to express whatever the hell i'm feeling, someone comes along and makes fun of it.

honestly, i don't get what's so funny about liking different things.



ugh, i have such great friends, don't i -__-